Wednesday, August 17, 2016

I still miss you, Blair. 😢

Exactly one month ago, when we lost a baby again, just 7 days after we lost Caleb.

Iniisip nyo siguro why i am posting them here, e aso lang naman sila. For some siguro, aso lang sila. But for people like us (me and my siblings), they are far more than a dog. We treated them like a baby. Someone (not something) who just can't utter a word but can express the deepest kind of appreciation and love and can also give the deepest kind of love na di mo basta-basta makukuha sa ibang tao.

Ngayon lang ako nagkalakas ng loob to make kwento about Blair, compare kay Caleb. Kasi sobrang sakit talaga ng epekto. Times two tas may nth power pa. I even turned to being a monster, a human who questioned God kung bakit nangyari ang nangyari. 😢

Bedtime of July 12, when I felt na medyo mainit si BeBlair and matamlay sya just like how tamlay Caleb is nung first na nagkasakit. Medyo praning pa ko kasi, hello? Two days pa lang nawawala si Caleb sa'min at syempre, ayaw naming maulit uli.

Afterwork of July 13, i texted my sister, Jamela na dalahin na si Blair sa vet at imi-meet ko sya dun. Nung nasa vet na kami, malaki daw ang chance na parvo virus din ang tumama kay Blair since iisang bubong lang kami nila Caleb at tumatagal ang virus ng 1 year. Sa sobrang praning, i've decided na i-board/confine na lang si Blair sa clinic kasi naka-swero na din sya.

But when i got home, our Tito Bong told us na iuwi na lang si Blair kasi merong herbal medicine na nakakatulong against parvo. So mga ilang oras pa lang, binawi ulit namin si Blair sa clinic. Take note. Sarado na ung clinic at kinalabog lang namin sila. (Sorry again, Bethlehem!)

When we got home, di na ko nakatulog. Isa na yata ako sa pinaka-oa na fur-rent kasi di na ko nakatulog. Naglaba pa ko para lang di ako antukin.

Kinaumagahan of July 14, dinala ulit namin si Blair for injection ng antibiotics nya. Di ako pumasok ng office kasi di ko talaga sya maiwan. Sumusuka at poops sya pero ung color yellow lang. Normal daw talaga un dahil nga parvo.

But in the evening of that day, nag-poops sya ng dugo. Sobrang lansa. Nakakakaba na talaga pero mataas ang hopes ko kasi nakaswero sya at nag-re-response naman sya whenever we call her. Kaya walang tulog ulit, kasi gusto kong tumutok lang sa kanya.

July 15, pupunta akong school pero sumama muna ko for her injection uli. When I was on my way to terminal, bigla akong tinamad umalis. Kasi gusto ko lang nakatutok kay Blair. Di ko sya kayang iwan. Mas mahalaga sya kesa sa kailangan kong asikasuhin sa school. 😊

She poops and nag-suka pa din sya ng dugo pero i'm happy that day kasi the past days since nagkasakit sya sobrang labis ng heart rate nya, pero nung nagSound trip na kami ng Christian music, umayos ung heart rate nya. I asked for some friends' prayer for her healing. And effective. She's happy too nung dinalaw siya nila Tita Liza and Jarie and Joyce. She wags her tail just like her usual self. And that made me happy and teary eyed. And gives me so much hope. ❤️

July 16, i needed to go to school that day and that means I have to leave Blair kahit di pa sya fully okay. But since andun sila Ate, Kuya and Jam, okay lang for me. Dumaan din ako ng St. Francis of Assissi Church, the patron of animals, to praye for Blair's recovery. Sobrang lakas ng loob ko that she'll get through this virus and we will bond again after nya gumaling.

Pag-uwi ko ng school, napansin kong medyo matamlay at tahimik ulit sya. Nakakaba pero dahil pinag-usapan namin sa bahay na BAWAL ANG BAD VIBES para di marinig ni Blair, di ko inentertain ang kaba na un.

Dinalaw ulit sya ni Tita Liza ng gabi m, she wag her tail again pero di pa din sya ganun kalakas. 😰

We thought, everything will be alright kasi lumapit na ulit sya sa tubigan nila, and that means di na namin sya ipo-force uminom.

Yun pala, it's just a thought err an hallucination lang.

Because kinaumagahan, nung mag-peprepare na sila Ate for Blair's clinic visit para sa antibiotics injection, bigla na lang syang nawala.

Bigla syang binawi sa'min.
Biglang nawala ung pag-asa sa puso ko na ilang araw kong inipon at pinuno.
Biglang nawala ung tiwala ko sa prayers.
Bigla akong nakaramdam ng pinaasa.
Pinaasa lang ako, kami.
False hopes lang pala ang lahat.

Sobrang sakit mawalan ng minahal.

Sobrang sakit kasi tuwing July na lang kami nawawalan.

I did question God. Di ako nahihiya to tell all of this. Di ko lang siya tinanong. Nagtampo (better term for nagalit) ako sa Kanya. Nawala ang "look at the brighter side" mantra ko sa buhay. Bumalik ako sa pagiging Negatron. 😢

Ngayon, i guess, medyo okay na kami ni Lord. Pero hanggang ngayon, masakit pa din. Malungkot pa din. Namimiss ko pa din si Blair and Caleb.

Kung pwede ko lang kulitin si Lord na ibalik Niya sa'min sila Blair and Caleb.

Bitin kami sa mga panahong mas masaya ang bahay dahil kasama namin silang dalawa, may kalaro at kaaway si Quinn. 😢

I miss you, Blair (and Caleb). Sana kasama nyo na sila Mama. At sana, kung sakaling palayasin na din ako dito, makasama ko kayo ulit. ❤️

Wednesday, July 13, 2016

Caleb -- The Survivor.

I have a blog entry na medyo nabulok na sa draft folder. It is an entry about our #CalebTheSurvivor kaso I decided not to finish it dahil ayokong umpisa lang ang entry. Gusto ko mapakita sa iba ang kanyang development. 




Pero sabi nga, nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Hindi ko akalain na this will be an entry to introduce, update and bid good bye to someone na minahal namin ng mabilisan.


MAY 29/30.

At the middle of the night of Sunday and Monday, 12:30AM to be exact, my Ate Carmela heard a crying puppy coming from the vacant house/lot beside ours. The cry sound like he/she was begging for his/her life. Hence, napalabas si Ate at Jamela ng bahay and saw a guy holding a panungkit. Likas na mga pakielamera ang mga kapatid ko, tinawag ng ate ko ang atensyon ni Koya "psst. hoy! Anong ginagawa mo dyan? Anong ginagawa mo sa aso?!"

Walang kaba-kaba kahit di nya maaninag kung kilala nya lalaki, lumabas si Ate ng bahay, sinayla at ininterview kung bakit iyak ng iyak ung puppy at walang kyeme nyang sinabi "wag mo nang pakielamanan yan o patayin yan. Sa'min na yan. Ipapagamot namin yan."

At umalis si Koya with words "wala ng pag-asa yan."

At un. Ung tulog ko nang diwa, bilang maaga akong papasok, ay nawala, at di ba makatulog hanggang ma-save na ang baby na ito." ❤

And i would also love to take this opportunity to thanks Jao for helping us to save this baby. :)


Monday, June 27, 2016

#WattahSanJuan2016

Dahil medyo naaaliw at nahihilig ako sa vlogging...

And to sum up my San Juan Festival experience last June 24...

Please click the link for the vid. Di pala kasi pwede dito ung Vimeo. Hahaha.


Enjoy watching! :*

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Rizal Churches for Holy Week 2016!

After so many months, let me allow to be a blogger again. Hohoho.

My kwento for today is about how we spent our Holy Week/Lenten Season/Cuaresma last week. :)

I am one of those living in a traditional era, where spending the Holy week with prayers, Visita Iglesia, fasting, or any activity encouraged by the Church. I may not agree with some people on their choices on spending the Holy Week at beaches or any places where they can party, rest or have some good time with their families and friends, but I am also not against on their decisions. Choice naman nila yun. Sino tayo para ijudge sila sa choice nila, di ba? Because I believe na "HINDI KA MAGIGING MABUTI/MALINIS SA PAMAMAGITAN NG PAGTURO O PAGPUNA SA GINAGAWA NG IBA."

Okayyyyy, so much for that.

Holy week has been one those seasons that I always look up to every time the New Year comes. I don't know exactly the reasons. But maybe because I am excited in long vacations, bonding with family and friends and also with the thought that I am saved again (for the nth time!) from the sins I've committed.

Actually (woo. Artista!), sobrang common lang naman talaga ng mga gawain ko kapag Holy Week. Kumbaga, ako ung taong kapag tinanong mo anong plano ko sa HW, sasagutin mo ung sagot ko ng: "ah, tulad lang last year?!". Ganern. Hahaha. Visita Iglesia with family and some friends on Holy Thursday, Pabasa in SJ on evening of Holy Thursday to afternoon of Good Friday, uwi ng Antips tas petiks na ng Sat-Sun. Tas Salubong kapag Easter Sunday na at nasa SJ kami. :) 

I started Visita Iglesia as my annual panata with my Tita Wilma and Ate Car last 2003 around QC-Manila-SJ Churches. And after that, naging yearly na. Hanggang pati friends ko nayaya ko na. Once lang yata ako di nakapagVI and that was 2014, i think.

Paulit-ulit ang VI namin sa QC-Manila-SJ churches. Sa sobrang paulit-ulit, kabisado na namin kung saan ang Church na susunod, if ever may nahuli o hahabol. Ewan ba namin bakit di kami nagsawa o naumay pero siguro dahil malapit sa'min tas magbabasa pa kami sa Pasion pagka-uwi. But this year, medyo naiba. Actually, naiba since last year. NagVI kami nila Ate Car, Jam and Jarie sa Antips Churches. (i'll try na ma-throwback regarding dun para sa future reference. Haha.) Tas ngayong year, Rizal Churches na kami. O diba, bongga?! Haha. This is a different VI talaga since nagstart kami kasi kasama din namin ang baby namin!



Anyone from our family and some friends na kasama ay wala naman sasakyan, hence, we've decided to hire a van na lang. Gladly, we've found a nice van driver/owner thru Tita Regie (Tita Weng's friend) tas sulit din yung bayad plus in-allow nya na isakay si Quinn. :) (Ad: If you're looking for an 18-seater van for your gala, etc., message nyo ko. I'll give you Kuya Mike's number. He's mabait and not reklamador. Infairness, plus factor sa'min ang attitude ng driver.)

Anyhoo, so ayun nga. Here's the list of the Churches we've visited:
1. Transfiguration Church, Antipolo City
2. St. Rose of Lima Church, Teresa
3. St. Jerome Parish, Morong
4. Our Lady of the Holy Rosary, Cardona
5. Sta. Ursula Church, Binangonan
6. St. Clement Church, Angono
7. Christ the King Parish, Taytay

8:00-8:15AM ang usapan naming time ng pagsundo ni Kuya Mike para makaalis din kami agad ng 8:30AM. Okay naman sa time si Kuya Mike, kami ung hindi. Haha. 

Monday, November 2, 2015

Because I'm too old school!

Posted it last Friday...



...without thinking too much of the consequences of being absent sa virtual world. (May ganun talaga kong sakit. Haha!)

I don't know what's the big reason why i posted it on my timeline, but i know that i missed being not-too-hooked in this virtual world. :D

Some of the things I missed na ginagawa ko nung di pa uso ang facebook sa phone/wala pang smart phone:
1. Kumustahan sa text/tawag
2. Basa ng libro during free time
3. Sulat sa journal
4. Ligpit ng basura (I have this basura/treasure box where I put some souvenirs from memories with people I treasure and love)
5. Sleep all day during holiday
6. Ligpit ng bahay/damitan (Gumagawa naman ako sa bahay. Haha! Whenever I feel like to or madaming oras)
7. Muni-muni/Tulala mode/Me time
8. No pressures na sagutin ang kamusta sa text kasi wala namang "seen" :D
9. Dedmahin ang calls kapag di bet magsalita. Haha!

Infairness, nagawa ko naman most of the things I listed above. And thank you, Lord for allowing me to enjoy myself and the company of my siblings and our baby Quinn in this holiday/weekend. :) Nakakamiss lang kasi talaga ung dati. No hassles, no pressures, walang pagmamadali, petiks na buhay. :)

But during this event, there were alao things I've learned and noticed.
1. Mas prefer na magkamustuhan ng karamihan sa FB. :) Wala akong narecieve na "kumusta ka?" sa text e. (o wala lang talaga nakamiss sa'kin? Haha! #sadlife)
2. Kaya ko pa din mabuhay ng No-SocialMedia sa isang araw. :) Yun nga lang, maninigas kang mag-e-emote kasi nga walang nakakaalala sa'yo. Haha! (Akala mo lang wala! Pero meron, meron, meron! Nasa FB nga lang! Haha!)
3. Always, always spend time with family. Kahit na saglit na kwentuhan. Kahit na di naman masarap o bongga ang pagkaing nasa harapan ng lamesa. Kahit na mauuwi sa pagtatalo. Haha! Value the people around you, especially your family.  Spend time with them, not just spend (money) on them. 
4. Huwag na huwag mong ipagdamot sa sarili mo ang pahinga. Pahinga physically. Pahinga sa mga kwento o kakwentuhan. Pahinga sa issues and pressures sa trabaho, kaibigan, lovelife o anupaman. Di rin masama na magpakabaho ka muna (pero naligo ako ha! Haha) tas maligo ka ng matagal sa banyo habang kumakanta o nagmuni-muni. :D

So there! Sana ma-inspire din kayo na umabsent sa social media. Hahaha. JK. Seriously, wag tayong magpakain ng bongga sa technology. Yes, it can also be our means of communication with our families and friends especially sa mga nasa abroad but sometimes, masarap pa rin balikan ang dati. :) Makibalita sa mga pamilya at kaibigan (kahit hindi sila online!). Magbasa at maamoy ang libro (hindi ebook!). Kumain habang nagkikwentuhan (hindi habang nagche-check/nagla-like ng posts sa FB o IG), but I'm thankful na di pa naman kami ganun sa bahay. Haha! :D

Use technology wisely guys! Don't allow technology to overuse you! :)