Friday, July 28, 2017

All about Him | 07.24-28.17

Disclaimer: Madaldal po ako. 😂

I've been and still in a rollercoaster ride part of life right now. I won't mention any of our problems, kasi lahat tayo meron nun. Basta nakakaloka, nakakaubos dugo, nakakabutas ng bulsa, nakakatuyo ng utak ang buhay ko ngayon. 

There were parts that I feel "envy" on the things that are happening to some people I know. Oo, masama mainggit. ✌🏼 #HuwagTularan

But I stumble upon this verse, Psalms 37:1-2. And I realized, "oo nga. Nawawala din naman ang mga un." 








Sabi nila, "walang sagot sa inggit". Pero, meron. SIYA. Kasi kahit gaano kadilim ang tingin natin sa buhay, lumiliwanag dahil sa Kanya. 
 



And in one of my meditation morning thru my meditation app that I've downloaded, it instructed me to tell Him the things I have in my mind as if I am talking to Him, at lumabas sa isipan ko ang "I cannot do everything. Ayoko na." After that, the app instructed naman to meditate and be aware sa mga images na lalabas sa isip ko. And i saw people walking, bicycling, moving, as if telling me to keep on moving, to keep on going, to keep on doing things I am doing now. At un daw ang sagot Niya sa mga sinabi/naisip ko earlier. Galing no? Napaelib din ako e. Haha!


Andami pang dumaan na pangyayari ngayong lingo. Merong tipid moments. Dahil oo, ang tagal ng sahoooooodddddd! Pero di naman ako nagutom ng bongga. Dahil ewan ko, parang kinakalabit ni Lord ang mga officemates to treat the whole office for a free lunch, almost everyday! Haha! Nakatipid ng bongga for a week! 🤘🏼






At ngayong bago matapos ang workweek, may bagong problema na naman mga bes. Kaso simot na me. Haha! kaya sabi ko na lang sa kwentuhan namin kaninang umaga, "Waaah. Di ko na alam paano 'to sosolusyunan. Pero alam kong may solusyon. At Sa'yo manggagaling yun. So help me, God."

At natapos ang araw na solved ang kaso este problema! Haha! Galing lang ni Lord e! Kaya elib na elib ako! 


P.S. Baka naisip nyo habang binabasa 'to, "Woo. Feeling righteous. Pa-Diyos-Diyos. Salbahe naman. Paano kami maniniwala dyan".

P.S.2. Opo. Salbahe talaga ako. At wala akong paki! 😂 Siya ung binibida ko, hindi ako. Wag kayong maniwala sa'kin. Maniwala kayo sa Kanya. 

P.S.3. Hence,





Sunday, May 7, 2017

Finishing Strong!

So i joined an online contest last May 2, which I rarely do. It's a contest for "World's Highly Skillful Cake Decorator" by Amazing Cakes. My entry was accepted and was up in the site on May 3 and found out that the online voting will be until May 5. Darn. I only have almost 3 days to collect votes and this is a contest where "most likes" will be announced as a winner. Haha. Mali yata ang pinasok ko, bes. But being a "competitive" person, i still share it to family and friends and friends of friends and still gather few votes that made me a 3rd placer. Haha.



Truly, it is not always about how you start. It is always about how you finish. Hence, thank you loved ones for making my cake to finish strong. I may not reach the summit but knowing you're there to push me in climbing this, my "mountain of dreams", is enough to keep me going and pursue this dream, this passion. 


Just like how i finish strong on this online friendly competition, this cake finish strong during the time that I am making this. Just a brief background on how this cake was made. Haha.

The cake was supposed to be a Dream Catcher cake. I did the topper in advance since I am also working in a 7-4 day job. But on the mid-night, 4:30am to be exact, that I am making the cake, the dream catcher was broken. The cake would be needed on April 8 and it's alreay April 8! I am sleepy. I am tired. I'm making the cake after work. Kumustahin naman naten ang pagod na katawan, db? I almost cried. I've got no idea on how will I finish this cake. I started it right but it gone wrong. 


Thankfully, God still gave me an idea and the will to finish the cake despite the heartbreak and sleepy eyes. Haha. 


Sometimes, things gone bad to make other things better. Sometimes, failures are failures if you let them discourage you. If you fail, don't stop. Don't give up. Don't let them discourage you on doing your passion. Just pause, ask for God's guidance and He'll get you through it. ❤


Thursday, November 17, 2016

#DroolOverLaps: The Classic Chocolate Chip Cookies

I've been baking since 2014 but this journey has little snippets before that year. You may read my "history" in this baking journey here.   

I am now selling my homemade baked goodies to my friends and some friends of friends and some other people thru online selling at Ja's a Piece of Cake's Instagram

Since I've been very passionate about this journey, I took up a short course/NC II last February until April, which I will share to you once I got my my NC II Certificate from TESDA. :)

But today, let me share to you a recipe for this all-time favorite and very classic snack for kids and kids at heart, the Chocolate Chip Cookies.


The recipe is adapted from Ana Olson. :)

Ingredients:

1/2 cup Unsalted Butter, room temperature
1/2 cup Brown Sugar, packed light
1/2 cup White Sugar
1 Egg, large & in room temperature
1 tsp Vanilla Extract
1 1/4 cup All-purpose Flour
1 tbsp Cornstarch
1/2 tsp Baking Soda
1/2 tsp Salt
1 1/2 cup Chocolate Chips
1 cup Toasted Pecan Nuts, coarsely chopped (optional)

Directions:
  1. Dry ingredients: In a medium bowl, sift the flour, cornstarch, baking soda and salt together. Mix well.
  2. Cream butter, brown sugar and white sugar together.
  3. Beat in egg and vanilla extract.
  4. Add the dry ingredients into the butter mixture. Stir until blended.
  5. Add chocolate chips. (Add more 1/4 cup of chocolate chips if you want. Because i know you want it. Hahaha.)
  6. Add the toasted pecan nuts. (But i prefer not to add nuts since i want it to be classic!)
  7.  Scoop the cookie dough using an ice cream scoop or 1 tbsp, shape them into balls. (I used 1/2tbsp for smaller sizes.)
  8. Place onto baking sheet with parchment paper. Chill for at least an hour.
  9. Preheat the oven to 325F before putting the baking sheet inside
  10. Bake for 15-18 minutes, until browned around the edges. (I bake mine around 13-14 minutes since it is small sizes.)
  11. Cool on the baking tray for at least 2 minutes before transferring it to cooling rack. (That's the longest 2 minutes of your life, for sure! Hahah!)
Best serve with cold milk! Yay!  
 

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

I still miss you, Blair. 😢

Exactly one month ago, when we lost a baby again, just 7 days after we lost Caleb.

Iniisip nyo siguro why i am posting them here, e aso lang naman sila. For some siguro, aso lang sila. But for people like us (me and my siblings), they are far more than a dog. We treated them like a baby. Someone (not something) who just can't utter a word but can express the deepest kind of appreciation and love and can also give the deepest kind of love na di mo basta-basta makukuha sa ibang tao.

Ngayon lang ako nagkalakas ng loob to make kwento about Blair, compare kay Caleb. Kasi sobrang sakit talaga ng epekto. Times two tas may nth power pa. I even turned to being a monster, a human who questioned God kung bakit nangyari ang nangyari. 😢

Bedtime of July 12, when I felt na medyo mainit si BeBlair and matamlay sya just like how tamlay Caleb is nung first na nagkasakit. Medyo praning pa ko kasi, hello? Two days pa lang nawawala si Caleb sa'min at syempre, ayaw naming maulit uli.

Afterwork of July 13, i texted my sister, Jamela na dalahin na si Blair sa vet at imi-meet ko sya dun. Nung nasa vet na kami, malaki daw ang chance na parvo virus din ang tumama kay Blair since iisang bubong lang kami nila Caleb at tumatagal ang virus ng 1 year. Sa sobrang praning, i've decided na i-board/confine na lang si Blair sa clinic kasi naka-swero na din sya.

But when i got home, our Tito Bong told us na iuwi na lang si Blair kasi merong herbal medicine na nakakatulong against parvo. So mga ilang oras pa lang, binawi ulit namin si Blair sa clinic. Take note. Sarado na ung clinic at kinalabog lang namin sila. (Sorry again, Bethlehem!)

When we got home, di na ko nakatulog. Isa na yata ako sa pinaka-oa na fur-rent kasi di na ko nakatulog. Naglaba pa ko para lang di ako antukin.

Kinaumagahan of July 14, dinala ulit namin si Blair for injection ng antibiotics nya. Di ako pumasok ng office kasi di ko talaga sya maiwan. Sumusuka at poops sya pero ung color yellow lang. Normal daw talaga un dahil nga parvo.

But in the evening of that day, nag-poops sya ng dugo. Sobrang lansa. Nakakakaba na talaga pero mataas ang hopes ko kasi nakaswero sya at nag-re-response naman sya whenever we call her. Kaya walang tulog ulit, kasi gusto kong tumutok lang sa kanya.

July 15, pupunta akong school pero sumama muna ko for her injection uli. When I was on my way to terminal, bigla akong tinamad umalis. Kasi gusto ko lang nakatutok kay Blair. Di ko sya kayang iwan. Mas mahalaga sya kesa sa kailangan kong asikasuhin sa school. 😊

She poops and nag-suka pa din sya ng dugo pero i'm happy that day kasi the past days since nagkasakit sya sobrang labis ng heart rate nya, pero nung nagSound trip na kami ng Christian music, umayos ung heart rate nya. I asked for some friends' prayer for her healing. And effective. She's happy too nung dinalaw siya nila Tita Liza and Jarie and Joyce. She wags her tail just like her usual self. And that made me happy and teary eyed. And gives me so much hope. ❤️

July 16, i needed to go to school that day and that means I have to leave Blair kahit di pa sya fully okay. But since andun sila Ate, Kuya and Jam, okay lang for me. Dumaan din ako ng St. Francis of Assissi Church, the patron of animals, to praye for Blair's recovery. Sobrang lakas ng loob ko that she'll get through this virus and we will bond again after nya gumaling.

Pag-uwi ko ng school, napansin kong medyo matamlay at tahimik ulit sya. Nakakaba pero dahil pinag-usapan namin sa bahay na BAWAL ANG BAD VIBES para di marinig ni Blair, di ko inentertain ang kaba na un.

Dinalaw ulit sya ni Tita Liza ng gabi m, she wag her tail again pero di pa din sya ganun kalakas. 😰

We thought, everything will be alright kasi lumapit na ulit sya sa tubigan nila, and that means di na namin sya ipo-force uminom.

Yun pala, it's just a thought err an hallucination lang.

Because kinaumagahan, nung mag-peprepare na sila Ate for Blair's clinic visit para sa antibiotics injection, bigla na lang syang nawala.

Bigla syang binawi sa'min.
Biglang nawala ung pag-asa sa puso ko na ilang araw kong inipon at pinuno.
Biglang nawala ung tiwala ko sa prayers.
Bigla akong nakaramdam ng pinaasa.
Pinaasa lang ako, kami.
False hopes lang pala ang lahat.

Sobrang sakit mawalan ng minahal.

Sobrang sakit kasi tuwing July na lang kami nawawalan.

I did question God. Di ako nahihiya to tell all of this. Di ko lang siya tinanong. Nagtampo (better term for nagalit) ako sa Kanya. Nawala ang "look at the brighter side" mantra ko sa buhay. Bumalik ako sa pagiging Negatron. 😢

Ngayon, i guess, medyo okay na kami ni Lord. Pero hanggang ngayon, masakit pa din. Malungkot pa din. Namimiss ko pa din si Blair and Caleb.

Kung pwede ko lang kulitin si Lord na ibalik Niya sa'min sila Blair and Caleb.

Bitin kami sa mga panahong mas masaya ang bahay dahil kasama namin silang dalawa, may kalaro at kaaway si Quinn. 😢

I miss you, Blair (and Caleb). Sana kasama nyo na sila Mama. At sana, kung sakaling palayasin na din ako dito, makasama ko kayo ulit. ❤️

Wednesday, July 13, 2016

Caleb -- The Survivor.

I have a blog entry na medyo nabulok na sa draft folder. It is an entry about our #CalebTheSurvivor kaso I decided not to finish it dahil ayokong umpisa lang ang entry. Gusto ko mapakita sa iba ang kanyang development. 




Pero sabi nga, nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Hindi ko akalain na this will be an entry to introduce, update and bid good bye to someone na minahal namin ng mabilisan.


MAY 29/30.

At the middle of the night of Sunday and Monday, 12:30AM to be exact, my Ate Carmela heard a crying puppy coming from the vacant house/lot beside ours. The cry sound like he/she was begging for his/her life. Hence, napalabas si Ate at Jamela ng bahay and saw a guy holding a panungkit. Likas na mga pakielamera ang mga kapatid ko, tinawag ng ate ko ang atensyon ni Koya "psst. hoy! Anong ginagawa mo dyan? Anong ginagawa mo sa aso?!"

Walang kaba-kaba kahit di nya maaninag kung kilala nya lalaki, lumabas si Ate ng bahay, sinayla at ininterview kung bakit iyak ng iyak ung puppy at walang kyeme nyang sinabi "wag mo nang pakielamanan yan o patayin yan. Sa'min na yan. Ipapagamot namin yan."

At umalis si Koya with words "wala ng pag-asa yan."

At un. Ung tulog ko nang diwa, bilang maaga akong papasok, ay nawala, at di ba makatulog hanggang ma-save na ang baby na ito." ❤

And i would also love to take this opportunity to thanks Jao for helping us to save this baby. :)